AfterXShock wrote:
I have struggled and continue to struggle with severe depression and anxiety disorders my whole life. I constantly feel inadequate, and if I fail at anything, no matter how small, to me it is the equivalent of failing as a person. This accounts for the strange behavior some of you have noticed from me in game. Anything competitive is a bad idea for me.
A little bit sad to see you ending this application because of the element of competition. We're not a very competitive clan. Some of us are, some of us aren't. You can play just for fun if you like, or you can give it your all every single game. We don't mind... as long as you're good enough. I haven't played you, but others say you are good enough, so you shouldn't let that deter you.
About the depression, though: if that is too big a hindrance, then there's no doubt that you should take a break from Repcom to look after yourself. Maybe, though, having a bit of a hobby on the side to distract you every now and then when you feel like it may not be such a bad idea. In any case, I'm moving this to denied; feel free to PM me should you change your mind and I'll bring it right back.
Good luck with everything.