Tree wrote:
1) Maturity still seems to be an issue. I’m seeing the same trends of hostility with others followed shortly after by sycophantic tendencies and desperate pleas to “be friends” again. I don’t understand how this level of drama can be associated with a game, but I don’t feel like babysitting or moderating every time someone decides to make a hate page or call someone out.
2) Skill and activity: If everything else were solid, I might overlook skill, but taking all of the other issues into account, I don’t feel that there is an adequate level of skill to compensate for the other shortcomings. I’m not concerned about your activity, although I do have to question the frequent updates concerning leaves of absence that seem to take less time than it takes for me to log on again.
3) Your loyalty is also highly questionable. The sheer number of applications you’ve submitted alone makes me question your motives, and the fact that you’ve joined and left several other clans in the interim doesn’t make me any more confident in your commitment here.
I feel that it would be in your best interest and ours for you to look for another clan that may be better suited for you. You are of course free to continue your application, but my vote is no.
I knew this was a bad idea from the start. I have and now suffered from extreme depression over the course of three years. It causes me to get very angry when someone says a negative comment about me. When I get calm down from said rage, I ussually panic and think that I did something horribly wrong. I tend to make people feel like crap because it makes me feel better about myself. This might account for the odd behavior for people who knew me after ESC and SoD died. I regret ever applying and getting super competitive. I always tried to adapt to the personality of the "cool" people of repcom and always piss people off. When I joined red cell, I was surprised that I actually got in and very excited until a few unnamed people drove me away with their trolling and bad attitude. And now here I am, applying for you guys. I hope this gives you an insight to my behavior.